the begining of the end of the year

today is the first day of the end of the year.  It has been a good year, we added two new members to our family, Tristen and Dean, we moved into a little house that I love, we are back in Northern Nevada where I feel is my place to be. We made peace in the family. It has been a good year and the new year will bring more, we will be adding a new little person to our family, that is if she does not decide to come into our world this month, she is trying her best to be here, I think she knows that she will be joining a fantastic family and cannot wait to start her journey with us. I have so much to be thankful for. Yes, I am happy, content, and full of good feelings.

it was a good month for healing

October was a good month for healing in our family, two sisters made peace and a niece and Aunt have made peace, ahhhhhhhhhh so good.  I love seeing my family pulling together and the healing is working.

whoot whoot whoot

I love today,  Maura and Julia made peace with each other. It will be a work in progress but it is a start. So today is a good day. Thank you.

The new member in our family

today is a good day, we add a new member to our family, his name is Dean Snyder and he will be born today, he will be our 12th great grandchild. Wow our family has grown leaps and bounds. 20 grandchildren and now 12 great grandchildren, we are so blessed.

I think I know why my comments do not register

on some of my family's blog I have tried to leave comments but it does not let me and I think I just figured it out. Some of you still have my old e-mail address to allow me to see your pages and I don't have that one any longer, I don't know how to fix that so my current e-mail will work. It is the google gmail acct one that I am now using. If any of you know what I have to do to fix that let me know ok.

ps loving my new residence. Will write more when I have some good pictures to post, it is taking us a bit longer to unpack, I guess that comes with age. Love you all.

New Address

I am so excited, we are going to move to our new home on August 1st. It is a quaint little house in the historical district of Dayton NV. It has a big porch that runs the length of the front of our house and faces west so we have mountains to look at. I fell in love with it the first time I saw it and all we could do was walk around it and peek into the windows but then on Tuesday we were taken inside by the property manager and it said I am yours lease me I fell in love again. It is very small but big enough for the two of us. It has 2 bedrooms and one small bathroom and I mean small but what the heck, we managed in the motorhome so we will manage in this one. The main area is a open concept with the kitchen, dining area and living area all in one, it has a woodburning stove, I have a small room off the dining room that will be my computer/craft room, no tv in the living room. I cannot wait to be able to sit outside on my front porch in the morning to listen to the birds singing and just enjoy the area.

Our new address is

260 Ziller
Dayton, NV 89403

effective August the 1st.

its wonderful to be alive

Its a wonderful day and I love life, I am so happy tonight......

Taste of Town

yesterday I had a great time with my daughter and 3 grandaughters at the Taste Of Town, we volunteered to keep count and make sure that the tasters had the proper wrist bands to be able to taste and for this we got to go around and taste after our 2 hour shift was over, we ate our way from the Carson Nugget all the way down the the Carson Mall and ended up at Schats Bakery having our dessert, a yummy cream puff. It was fun, tiring, and lots of walking. In two hours our team checked in over 360 people at our station and there was still 2 hours left to go. All in all it was lots of fun, I got a tee shirt and free foods to taste. Will I do it again next year? yes if able.

what a beautiful morning it was

today was wonderful, we sat outside and had our morning coffee, read our papers, listen to the birds singing and just enjoying the peace and quiet. What a wonderful start to a wonderful day.

A new leaf

ok, enough is enough, no more pity party for me, I have decided that I am going to feel good, I am going to find my inner self and I am going to live for me and my husband, we are going to enjoy our lives, we are going to go places, we are going to do just for us. No more drama, no more trying to be the peace keepers, what is, is what it is. I am in a good place today and I will be in a good place tomorrow and the day after that. I have a wonderful supporting husband, I have daughters that I love and I have grandchildren I adore and I have great grandchildren who light up my life, what more could I need or ask for? yep, I made the decision to let go and and be happy. Your life is what you make it, not what other people make it. Live, love, be happy.

frustrations continue

I have never had so much discord in my life as I am now experiencing in my later years. When I was younger and my husband was in the military and had to leave us months at a time I never experience the discord I now feel, I had to take care of 4 children by myself, I had a husband who at a whim would decide to move us, but in all of this I had the feeling of love, I had the feeling of togetherness, I had the feeling of family. Now in my later life I feel the disconnection of my family, I do not feel togetherness, I feel adrift in my life and I don't like it. I don't know how to fix it, I am so lost right now, no contentment, just frustrations. I have four daughters but I have to keep them in separate compartments in my heart and in my mind and that is so hard. We left Las Vegas to move to Alaska to have the family connection with our youngest daughter and her family, my oldest daughter also moved her family with us so we could continue the family togetherness but that did not happen and I don't have the answer. We returned to Nevada where we thought we would find the family togetherness and it has escaped us once again. I have to rethink my life and hope someday that all will be good again, in the meantime my one and only rock, my husband, will have to fill all the dispare I feel, all the frustrations I feel, all the lack of family togetherness I feel and he will have to be my rock, he will have to ground me, he will have to fill my heart with the love that I miss from my family, he will have to be my life.

Happy Mothers Day

I had a wonderful Mothers Day, in the early afternoon we went to Reno with Maura and Pete along with Pete's Mother and Dad, Josh, Lorraine and Dannie and I must not forget Marcus joined us, then there was Mary and her Mom, we had a really nice visit and a really nice light lunch, then this evening we went to Marina's house for dinner and it was a wonderful family gathering there, the Simpsons joined us, Brian's Mom and her friend came and he make the best lemon marauine pie, the tacos were wonderful, the kids were all there and it was so much fun to watch all the little ones playing and just having a wonderful time. I got roses from my hubby and a beautiful orchid plant from Maura and wonderful card greeting from the kids. I was wished a happy Mothers Day from Alaska from Catherine and Julia. All in All it made me feel very warm within my heart. I love my family.

sadness

Tomorrow is Mothers Day but for me it makes me sad, I have several reasons for not liking Mothers Day, the main reason is I don't have my mother to celebrate with anylonger, so if you have your mothers please let them know how special they are to you and hug them and tell them you love them unconditionaly, I know we are human and we make mistakes and sometimes we are not understood or taken the wrong way but we love and we hurt and we can be saddend.

The other reason for sadness this year is something I never thought I would experience within my family and children, I know there are spats from time to time but I never thought there would be such a big break in my family and have it split so deeply that right now I do not see any healing and that makes me so sad. I would love to be able to talk to all my children and share my thoughts and feelings and be able to talk about the funny, sad, happy, trials, gains, that each will experiance within their families and not feel like I am stepping on egg shells in case I say something to one that might make the other upset and make situations worse, I cannot nor will I try to fix it and try to set things right, I just cannot do it. I love all my children, I hurt for all my children.

I have never experienced such deep sadness in my life as I have been feeling for the past few years, I don't like this feeling, I want to be happy, I want to laugh, I want to feel great. I will just have to work at it and hope my remaining years will be good ones with great memories.

hip hip hoorah

My granddaughter Deborah is an author, her book "The Gifted" came out in published form and I bought my first one from Amazon then our friend Emmet came up from Las Vegas and he made off with my copy so what did I do? why of course what else does a grandmother does but go online and order three more copies, maybe I will be able to keep at least one of these copies. I am so proud of Deborah and her accomplishment. ps,,,all is well in this household, Del is doing just fantastic and getting back to his normal self without a stash. What a way to begin Spring. Congratulations go out to Deborah with lots of hugs and loves and kisses.

Our week in March

Just wanted to share our past week with you. Tuesday we took Del to the ER, he finally gave in and agreed to go, he had been up since 2 am with chest pains and sever stomach pains, he finally took a pain medication and slept most of Tuesday away. Anyway at ER they took him in right away and his enzymes's were elevated, his white cells were evlevated, had a slight temp, and blood pressure was way down. They admitted him to the hosptial and started running tests on him, it turned out his gallbladder was angry (gangrene) as his doctor said, that was causing the infection throughout his body, his ekg's were off a bit so they did nuke tests on him. They decided that he needed to have his gallbladder out immediatly so they did that on Thursday, in the meantime his sugars went crazy so they put him on insulin. He did not get to eat until Friday. We thought he was going to get to come home on Friday, he was happy and then the other shoe dropped. The Cardiologist was not happy with the results done on his heart so he scheduled him for the stress test on Saturday morning (the one where he lays down they pump him full of chemicals, run him through the tube, yep that is what they did. Well the doctor came back and said yes he did have a small heart attack but it was not active at this time but he said that Del will have to have follow up visits from now on so they can prevent anymore attacks. Del now has a new best friend, his Cardiologist. We fianlly got to bring him home Saturday afternoon with a boat load of meds. While he was in the hsopital we cleaned out his stash. He has a foot stool in his room that opens and in it we found See's candies, girl scout cookies, M&M's, snickers. No more stash for him, we are now using Mrs. Dash for seasoning and will be including much more fresh veggies and fruits in the diet. What a wake up call this one was. Anyway that was our week, thank goodness it is over and all turned out well.

A new Year and A new posting.

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